My Cat, My Inner Cosmos

How Cassie and meditation brought me back to what matters 🐾🕉️🪷

Introduction — When I searched far away for what was already here

There are times in life when we look for peace like we look for a lost key.
We search everywhere.
We turn everything upside down.
We dig through ideas and hope that somewhere, somehow, we will finally find an answer.

That was me.

I was searching.
In books.
In religions.
In sacred words.

I wanted to understand.
I wanted to feel alive.
I wanted to feel like I truly belonged.

And yet, even after reading and trying so hard, there was still noise inside me.
A fog.
A weight I couldn’t explain.

Then one day, without any big ceremony, I opened a simple practice:
mindfulness.

Not because I felt ready.
But because I needed it.

And that day, without knowing it…
Cassie was about to become my teacher.

1) The first meditation — and Cassie entering the temple

I sat down.
I tried to breathe calmly.
I played soft music.

And instantly…
my mind started running.

Thoughts everywhere.
Memories.
Fears.
Endless scenarios.

I judged myself.
I tensed up.
I asked myself:

“Why can’t I do this?”

Then a sentence came back to me, like a small thread of light:

A thought is like a drop of water in the ocean.
If you don’t hold it… it dissolves.

So I stopped fighting.
I opened my eyes, just a little.

And Cassie was there.

Paws tucked under her.
Half-closed eyes.
Slow breathing.

Her purring filled the air.
Like a warm mantra.
Like a vibration whispering:

“It’s okay. I’m here.”

In that moment, I understood something simple and huge:

👉 Cassie wasn’t “meditating.” Cassie was present.

2) What Cassie taught me — without a single word

Cassie doesn’t try to be perfect.
She doesn’t try to control.

She listens.
She feels.
She settles.

When she drinks, she truly drinks.
When she eats, she eats with pleasure.
When she stretches, she stretches as if the sun is a blessing.

She is not living for performance.
She is living in truth.

And I realized that I was often somewhere else.

In the future.
In the past.
In regrets.
In worries.

Cassie reminded me of the only thing that truly exists:

now.

3) Between Buddha and Shiva — life as a dance

In Buddhism, I met an idea that freed me:

🪷 everything is impermanent.

Thoughts pass.
Emotions pass.
Storms pass.

And in Hinduism, I found another deep truth:

🕉️ life is movement.

A dance.
A transformation.
A cosmic breath.

Shiva dances.
And in his dance, there is creation… and dissolution.
Beginning… and ending.
Loss… and rebirth.

So I started to understand:

I didn’t need to control every wave.
I needed to learn how to float.

And Cassie, like a small domestic goddess, showed me how.

4) My practice today — simple, soft, real

Today, I meditate differently.

I no longer try to “succeed.”
I try to return.

Return to the breath.
Return to the body.
Return to silence.

Sometimes Cassie comes close to me.
Sometimes she walks away.

And even that is a teaching.

Because she reminds me:

✨ we don’t own peace.
✨ we don’t own love.
✨ we don’t own living beings.

We welcome them.
And we let them be.

So I meditate like Cassie:
with my eyes half open.
Not closed to the world.
Not lost in the world.

Just…
present.

5) What it changed inside me

Meditation did not erase my pain.

But it taught me not to drown in it.

It taught me to hold my heart the way you hold a candle:
with gentleness.
with respect.

And Cassie taught me that happiness is not a mountain to climb.

Sometimes happiness is:

• a breath that becomes calmer,

• a hand resting on warm fur,

• a purr that says: “you can rest now.”

Conclusion — A purr, a mantra, a home that became a temple

I thought I had to go far away to meet wisdom.

And in the end…
wisdom sat next to me.

It had four paws.
A peaceful gaze.
And pure presence.

Cassie never read a sacred book.

But she showed me what matters most:

🪷 return to the moment.
🕉️ breathe.
🐾 love quietly.

And in that simplicity…
my inner world began to heal.

One breath at a time.

One moment at a time.

One purr at a time.

For you, dear reader — what if you tried?

If you are going through a heavy time…
If your mind feels tired…
If your heart is looking for a safe place…

I invite you to do one thing:

Sit down.
Breathe.
Observe.

Even if it’s not perfect.
Even if your mind moves.

And if you have an animal…
watch them.

They might already be teaching you.

Because sometimes the greatest teachers do not speak.

They purr.

🐾🪷🕉️